as he throws you on the floor
you wind up on all fours
each others body they explore
upon finding intercourse
exhaling loud roars
hoping you locked the door
condoms gone, but u find more
from one to ten
you get the highest score
neva felt like that before
penetrating to my deepest core
that is what man was created for
for a woman to scream out…..
I’m Yours!!
Written 2003
by monique dillard
with all the stereotypes out there
ignorance can be thrown into the air
to the wind, this is how my story begins
a story of a ghetto Cinderella
through the normal eyes as you look upon me
my camillion ways can deceive
what you choose to see
within me, hidden is the diversity
of a ghetto Cinderella
i’m a slave to the rhythm
tuning out your decision
there’s a preconceived premonition
so often mistaken of what i’m givin
ghetto is not what i’m livin
cinderella is my vision
two words combined is what i’m feelin
do you feel my meaning?
you say hi and my high rises
are you still there…………
wait and see how my cat pulls surprises
out of a closed bag it hypnotizes
as you choke on the thoughts i provoke
words that i present and past spoke
with the stereotypes still lingerin
and people’s ignorance still bleedin
feel this ghetto Cinderella.
hypocracy flows easily through straightened teeth
as you speak to me,
you choose to believe what you think you see.
holding on to a first impression
could be everything else but me
cuz you can’t see
what’s deep inside the core
of one’s soul and it’s intensity
that precious glass slipper
against that wretched concrete
take a deep breath and accept the mass propensity
of the thoughts of a ghetto Cinderella.
a species fixed on survivin
and continuously drivin
to reach that ever so rising horizon
which can be so tirin
it’s suprising when you come
to the point of realizing
how to make reality out of fantasizing
with your eyes open
it’s easy to see the true depth in me
hear the thoughts i think and the words i speak
share the air i breathe and you will believe
that every Cinderella has a glass slipper in her closet
can you feel me?
Written 2000
by Monique Dillard
Time Time Time
We race against time on the daily
It blows my mind
Can’t break the tape, we can’t win the race
Against that time on the daily
The sun rises and it begins
That race against time, hearing that first chime
Then snooze with no time
Losing time in your mind
Try to prepare it for the umphteenth time
Oh I hate this race on the daily
Five days a week, it’s catchin up to me
It blows my mind
How time can eat away at me
Timelessly surrounded by emptiness
Superficial people in a superficial environment
This atmosphere is timeless as I race against it
Tryin to catch it on the daily I miss it.
Time Time Time
It blows my mind
Without the extracurricular I’d have no mind
So that time is my time
And I’ll blow my own mind
Against that superficial daily and week thang
I’m sometimes slowed down
Not keeping up with your speed
I’m still racin against time
Soon I’ll be ahead or catch up with time
That time spent on the daily
Fighting, living, against that time.
Monique Dillard
BASIC TRAINING HAS ME PREPARED
TO GO OUT ON A MISSION TO GET DAT
TACKING THROUGH ENEMY LINES
IN GREEN AND BROWN GEAR JUST TO GET DAT
ON MY KNEES, I LOOK INTO GREEN TREES
A PURPLE HAZE FOR MY MELLOW DAZE
I GOTTA GET DAT
YOU’VE BEEN ON MY MIND FOR A VERY LONG TIME
AND THE THOUGHTS REMAIN, UNTIL I GET DAT
CHEMICAL WARFARE DOESN’T SLOW MY PACE
I’M ON A SUICIDE MISSION JUST TO GET DAT
PSYCHOLOGICAL MIND GAMES I PLAY ON MYSELF
JUST TO REFRESH MYSELF WITH MENTAL STIMULATION
I’M GONNA GET DAT
AS I EXHALE AND RISE
SPLITTING OPEN DEM BROWN THIGHS
I’M INHALING CUZ I GOT DAT
BLAZING SADDLES WITH A SMOKING GUN
I FEEL DAT
AND MY MIND IS BLOWING FROM DAT………..
The process of creating a paper that reflects your own personal journey throughout your life course requires deep thought. I found that starting from my introduction and further on into the assignment, certain affirmations came to light. As I began with childhood, detailing the life experience of being raised by my grandparents and the reasons as to why and not by my biological parents, self-diagnosis became somewhat of a curiosity and venture. I began to research facts relating to my behavioral patterns over the course of my life. Although I am a child of addict parents, I was not raised in an environment of drugs and alcohol. What is surprising from my reflection and research is that I have learned that my temper, anxiety, and learning disabilities were a result of genetic factors placed upon me by my biological parents as a result of their drug abuse. “Studies have shown that exposure to cocaine during fetal development may lead to subtle but significant deficits later on, especially with behaviors that are crucial to success in the classroom, such as blocking out distractions and concentrating for long periods.” (National Association for Children of Alcoholics) My grandparents provided a loving home and the tools to help me develop into the person that I am proud to be today. I honor them in everything that I do.
Throughout my personal journey, I have learned many things about the long lasting effects of having drug addicted parents and what it does to children, along with the weight it bears throughout adulthood. Certain areas of development are interrupted in many cases which puts us at risk in the future. Certain risks of having emotional problems, personality defects, and slow cognitive development can be a result of being a child of an addict. As a child, I was given an IQ test upon entrance to a private school. The results showed a score of 128 for a 4 year old. Once placed in a classroom environment, the problems began with my learning. “One study comparing children of alcoholics (aged 6-17 years) with children of psychiatrically healthy medical patients found that children of alcoholics and elevated rates of ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) and ODD (Oppositional Defiant Disorder) measured against the control group of children.” (National Association for Children of Alcoholics)
Genetic consequences suffered by many children of alcohol and drug addicted parents plague our society today. My joy lays in the fact that my grandparents raised me is not a surprise to me or anyone who hears my story. The fact that in school I often daydreamed, needed instructions repeated by teachers in order to understand, and was easily distracted makes sense after going through the process of writing this personal journey paper. I grew up in a non-addictive home and I believe this saved my life. I had an abundance of support throughout my life to nurture my growth. “Children of addicted parents are the highest risk group of children to be alcohol and drug abusers due to both genetic and family environment factors.” (National Association for Children of Alcoholics) This assignment can be helpful when working with clients for if you know yourself, it leaves you open to understand and get to know others. How else would one relate to another person without being true to themselves in dealing with both the positive and negative aspects of their lives? Understanding your own development is a helpful tall and attributes to have when helping clients. Sharing your own journey with clients can prove very helpful when applicable. That type of openness must relate to the specific needs of the client. Clients want to relate with someone and this type of interaction can give some sort of common ground. On the other hand, there is no room for getting personal if there is no relation to the subject or treatment of the client. There is a code of ethics for all practices and it must be followed. All matters are sensitive in nature solely for the rehabilitation and diagnosis of the client.
Who you callin a bitch? Yes you guessed it. Another installment of yet one of many ignorant conversations with a deadbeat father who thinks that manipulating children and praying for their downfall is gratification for being kicked to the curb with a trash and duffel bag. The difference between Fruit Punch and this blog is that one is factual and the other is word vomit. You make the decision. This dude has many aliases along with many children spread in all four corners of the United States of America which makes him very elusive yet trifling to say the least. Any woman that is smarter than he, or contradicts his fallacious fairytales spun into life stories please beware. He will either hit you, spit on you, lie, cheat, steal, or threaten to get his sister to retaliate. If this cowardly poor excuse for a species didn’t use this ace card on a regular, someone may take him seriously. Since everyone that he has been in contact with runs away like a hooker at a nun convention, he has no one to beat or manipulate in the flesh. Instead he uses twitter as his soap box. He stands on it daily and talks about absolutely nothing. Maybe Xbox and Dallas but that is just about it. He randomly picks on young ladies that are in the adult industry or cam girls professing to be a scholar in pornography He has stolen some women’s websites and pictures for his own personal gain. Don’t get it twisted, he makes no money but says he does. Camilly Entertainment is nothing but a front of a failed business that hasn’t been in operation legally since 2008. The loser holds no computer skills what so ever to keep a sight full and running. His lack of business sense will not allow profit for this pipe dream that he can’t let go of. It is a wonder why he has moved five times within the last five years. There is no stability and he is hustling backwards. Porn is a chore for him, not a business.
Unfortunately there are other means of communication for a 42 year old boy that sits at home and picks fights with people on twitter claiming to be a video producer and porn king. This fool has watched too many episodes of Seymour Butts and thinks that he is going to be rich by masking a phony business on twitter. Yes I said phony. Please boys and girls do not believe for one second that “CAMILLY Ent” is a legit business. Click all links and you will find that his pages are under construction. Yep, been that way for the past five years. It will always be under construction because there is nothing to construct. Please do not pass this fool any pictures of yourself, your girlfriend, or your website because listen up, it is a fake. Just go to the website and you will see a host of typos and grammatical errors. Sam aka blkpoppie_187 was a product of the “no child left behind” act. They had to pass him along in high school. Poor guy got discharged from the military for cheating on his wife with the wife of another and then tried to muster up an education in the states. Poor guy couldn’t even hack it in community college. I know this for a fact because this big sucker cried bucket tears in my car one morning screaming that his then wife wouldn’t let him finish. What kind of bitchassness is that? Come on chump. Aren’t you a man?
In my previous blog I had to oust this lowlife deadbeat along with his prostitute whore of a live in lover because of their internet stalking. It is very detailed as a result of child neglect, child pornography, child endangerment, and personal threats on other parties. I have a sneaky suspicion that the live in lover referenced knows the truth about this buster brown leech because of her continuous silence thereafter. Just to give the audience a hint of how much of a sissy this guy is, I’ll rattle off some of the stuff that he repeats to his ex-wife. Little does he know that we both sit and laugh at him every time because it is like the sun? It will rise no matter how much it rains. Sissies and chumps that can be grouped with narcs and turncoats just can’t help themselves. Prime example below of how this bucked tooth turncoat chump texts his ex-wife bitching about his live in lover. Who wants to hear all this nonsense of you having your electric cut off the month of February and the month of April? Who cares? Who cares if you are about to get evicted? That is not my problem. Especially when you are boasting that you make 60k a year and that you have been at your job for three years. You can tell when a loser gets something positive. This is the first time in a decade that this chump consistently held down a job and now he is the lion king. All she wants to hear is when he is sending child support but a sister has to hear a daytime soap script as an excuse as to why he hasn’t sent child support in four years.
This dude texts like a schoolgirl who got dumped by the football jockey.
Sam: Hey, Nicole left me with the kids and went to North Carolina with her gay friend, stole my last $40 and video camera. I’m going to lock the doors and now you can give the boys a key.
Sam: Hey, I hate these kids of hers, they ate all the pizza and I spent my last $20 on it.
Sam: Until you respect me, I will not send money for my children to eat.
Sam: I’m going to get my sister to beat you up.
There is more gang but I would have to get an editor and spend a weekend in the mountains to fill you in. Let’s just say that this sorry excuse for a man is western civilizations’ enigma. He is a walking contradiction. In the past five years he has been claiming to get himself together so he can effectively be a role model for at least two of his sons. The other three children out of wedlock is not my concern. Each year Sam has been evicted from his living quarters. For the times he wasn’t evicted, he was infested with bed bugs that he carried from one house where he rented a room, to another apartment, to another rented room. This guy carries a spray bottle and says that he gets rid of the bugs that way. It is a wonder why he got his children infested with bites and sitting on a couch with no cushion. Wait a second gang. It gets better. Fruit punch works for a company in Virginia where he stole three laptops and passed them off as Christmas presents. It makes perfect sense when he brushes off theft as a personal reaction of not having a good upbringing. He admits to stealing from his mother because he “felt a certain way”. Get the F out of here!! Keep this fool away from women and children. Better yet, keep this fool away from himself. Sam seems to have amnesia when it comes to being a loser nothing of a man. Let me remind you buster brown. You used to iron my clothes and make my coffee as I went to work to feed your sons chump. I still have the dent in my leather sofa from you playing Xbox to fill your days. Thank you so much for having dinner ready for me as well SAM! Remember cooking my spaghetti and mashed potatoes? My how we forget the little things. Should I remind you more?
If you happen to run across this sorry excuse for a brother, father, friend, man, dude, or human being, run! There is one thing that he can do right. Play the victim. He looks like a child with his stripped shirt and baseball cap and he cries like a sissy who lost their ice cream cone. Lucifer should think twice before walking past this bile outcast. I know for a fact that this guy is a thief, a woman beater, and a habitual liar to say the least. He continues his wrath because he hides behind a computer with his rants and threats. His goal is to demean anyone who has a vision. He will definitely target you if he thinks you are a threat. Believe me, anyone with half a brain, a car, a life, love, and a good spirit is a threat to FRUIT PUNCH. That is why he is always sour. Or maybe just a little Sweet n Tangy! He threatens me on the regular but he knows that I will choke the life out him. He remembers when I had his head smashed in the drywall of my apartment five years ago. This was because the Redskins beat Dallas. Throw a bear on me and your face will meet the wall chump! Keep it up with the treats young grasshopper. Just keep it up. I’m losing pounds laughing.
This internet thug aka social misfit thinks that the truth will be silenced. He begged wordpress to remove this and guess what… It’s back. And this isn’t the only place CHUMP! See below for those who know and don’t know the truth about a 42 year old man that hides behind the computer and abuses women, children, but hides from men and his own children with his sidekick tramp smut girlfriend who steps out of pocket on the regular. GOTCHA!!!
Here is an update on the deadbeat dad that many seem to have in their lives. You would think that after four years behavior would change or that this particular DEADBEAT would feel ashamed of himself for his actions or lack there of. We have seen this particular deadbeat break the law while stomping on the hopes and joys of his own children all in the name of vanity and pride. Not to mention that this social reject stays behind the computer himself and stalk women who are 10-15 years younger professing that he has a business that has not generated an income since 2007. Let’s not talk about how you can google this fool and see his privates and pictures of himself in compromising positions. Let’s not talk about the letters that he writes to the Department of Human Services to obtain food assistance using the names of EVERY female he meets and uses the profits to buy hotel rooms and get his own rocks off of cam girls from out of town that don’t know any better. A social misfit that sits behind the computer stating that he is in the adult entertainment industry but done even know how to work Microsoft Office or spell.
It doesn’t matter to Fruit Punch because he shows it to children as he whispers in their ear, “this is my legacy and it is for you.” He waits until all adults are out of the house to stalk the 13 year old while he is online playing his Xbox with friends with his embellishments. He knows full well that after threatening bodily harm to the mother of his children and caregiver, along with the assistance of his live in lover as well through text and harassing emails, that any sane person would not allow their children to be placed in a harmful environment. But this wolf in sheeps clothing promised that they will be coming to stay with him and his whore of a failed mother for spring break all to brag about the new home that they will destroy. IN THE GHETTO once again. Funny thing is….. the children know that he is full of it because they know the truth. They just want video games because that is all that he has to offer. A one year membership. I mean come on son…. the boy almost got stabbed and was in the middle of you and the 250 pound felon in a heated argument the second day in a row. This guy has spent the last five years “getting his life together” as he professes to build an empire for all FIVE of his namesakes.
A 42 year old man who refuses to use condoms and impregnates women from state to state tossing them and his spawn aside. He beats women and then blames them for making him do it. He has never owned a thing in his life, discharged from the army dishonorably, and will not even visit his mother who is stricken with cancer. He will take a bus to New York, North Carolina, and New Jersey to chase a porn dream that will never happen. He pays no child support for any of his kids but he manipulates them. He tries everything in his power to turn them against their mothers or guardians. The very people who is doing his job, raising his children, motivating, feeding, nurturing. He damns everyone because he is a big skinny LOSER! Sam harbors criminals, cheats the government for public assistance and makes $60 annually but refuses to buy a book or socks for his sons, let alone tampons or training bras for his two daughters. This loser and his side hoe have since moved from their roach infested apartment in the belly of the ghetto and onto another ghetto with her children in which he supports. Buying a new Ipad is more important than getting his son a shirt for the JROTC dance. Go figure. But this chauvinist pig will happily get on the phone and promise his sons the world….. boots, debit cards, a day out with them, all empty promises never fulfilled. And you guessed it, he tries in every attempt to turn the boys against their mother or embed lies into minors heads as to why he is such a DEAD BEAT!! He is so predictable. He hasn’t been in contact since his children fled his home in fear for their lives at 10pm and had to stand across the street at a cemetery to be picked up. The FELON Nicloe hoe Damon was trying to stab him. As her kids are used to the ciaos, these two idiots did not realize that the other two boys were gone. It took them ten minutes, a blunt, and the police questioning to realize that they have had ten too many domestic disturbances at their residence. Child protective services had their eye on them the whole time. Now who is negligent? Question: If your ex calls you and threatens you repeatedly along with his live in convicted child abuser and felon, damns your dead family members, and hasn’t paid child support in over five years consistently (video games do not count), how would you react?
LOSER DEADBEAT FATHER OF FIVE and his side hoe CONVICTED FELON and CHILD ABUSER play tag team stalking pages of women and then in turn calls them stalkers. Well the proof is in the pudding.
Check out The INTERNET GANSTA TRICK ON THE SIDE!!!!! I had to handle this country wanna be cam gyrl slash west Virginia prostitute soliciting hoe. And by the way, she thought she could catch the orange line to West Virginia to meet a disillusioned potential JOHN that she advertized to on Craigslist. GUTTER TRAMP!
This trick stalked my Facebook so I had to go HAM on this bobble head…….the one he beats!! CHECK THE THREAD OUT and her MUGSHOT on MUGSHOTS.COM…
PUBLIC RECORD
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Do you think Im pressed about this shit??? Please get off my dick!! you and your chick are internet thugs, you hide behind your blog, twitter, and facebook. Nobody you know knows me and could probably give two fucks about this. In the time you took to dig this up you could’ve been doing something constructive.Ive been to jail so what and will go again.All that heroin your junkie dead mother did when she was pregnant with you really fucked you up!
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Not a half bad shot, but what can I say I make anything look good lmao.
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Inthemixwithtre ousted the stalker…. well… honey… learn to spell for one.. for two.. i know the email you sent from an noted abuser’s facebook page saying you are concerned and crying because a woman put the truth in your face mad you mad enough to call her out to the monkey bars after three made you soooooooooooo mad. it shows that you have no class talking about someone that has left this earth. since you choose to repeat the rantings and development of the man that beat you and smashed your face in order to what…. make me mad…. well honey.. it shows that you are a lowlife inter gent that comes from the gutter and your true judgement will come when you meet your maker. obviously, you do care enough to make a comment on this tread. this is public record and this information was passed along to me. i think it is funny as hell. and internet thug.. well that chick has a whole thread of you making threats to beat her up and actually making comments that male pedophiles make in reference to her son so who is the sicko. nothing you do or say will make me stoop to your level. it is just good to know that you are a fake and phony. what you need to do is concern yourself with the reason why the police has been to your house 5 times since June. Also worry about your other records. Damn gyrl… convicted for child abuse too… and for being evicted… LOW CLASS. The three mug shots lady….. you look like a horse that needs to be put down. Why did you send me an email from Samuel Gibson’s facebook account last night. you were on another different kick then. Shame that this is all public record though. I know the law HONEY.. did he tell you? ohhhhhh… Is this the same chick that was on the phone crying about bring elbowed in the temple? nawwwwwwwww….. Got some advice for you….. GO GET A HIV and HERPES test STAT…. Concern yourself with that. And you have my number as you stated……. so why didn’t you call me? HUMMMM…. oh wait there is more, but i think i’ll save that for later. Now go take some grammar classes and learn what sentence structure is…… or just use spell check dummy! Don’t confuse me with your incarcerated girlfriend that you send money to for her Christal meth addiction. Go pop some pills cuz you are obviously anxiety riden. country bobble head. and please, don’t call me out to “COME SEE YOU” in the streets. you have to be more cleaver than that…
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Inthemixwithtre …. ladies and gentleman… this is how you weed out the stalkers……ROTF!!!!! NOTE TO SELF!!!!
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Inthemixwithtre and get a wig that’s not so obvious. yacky doesn’t do you well. geeze!
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Neither of these two can read or write. They both spend time on twitter doing nothing but stalking others sites. The damn the dead, speak and exuberant amount of fallacies, and prey on young girls that think they are in the PORN industry to submit videos and pictures to them for I don’t know what. These fools sure don’t make a profit. Neither are from Washington, DC but is running the name in to the ground. Everyone dislikes them, and they are dirty trifling foul as they show children porno and film in their dirty ass apartments in the gutters of DC. Going on the fourth dirty hole with your bedbugs. Oh.. blkpoppie_i87 on twitter…. Can’t work Microsoft office but sure can envy everyone else. Did I tell you he likes to pour chocolate on his body and tease gay men on camera? TRUTH…
AND THERE IS MORE!!!!!!!!!! FruitPunch aka SAM is going around to all websites seeking a seek and assist order for removal of the TRUTH! But he can’t hide from it… BAMMA! Go back to CAMDEN!
